Attempted to produce a better likeness for the small scrunched up face in the previous post. Now with layering from the ground up and 95% less erasing. For the face, anyway. The hair was a struggle. Too wiry, not quite true to the original, could have been more efficient. Always struggled with darker values.
Clearly not a gesture drawing. On that note, though, loose but accurate...difficult to wrap my head around. But it doesn't necessarily have to be fast. But not so slow and accurate that it's becoming a contour drawing. What do I know.
What makes for good landmarks?
Awesome measuring. Got the left arm completely wrong. Plus, it was originally an observation of just the one guy because I did a previous small scrunchy version and wanted to address it. Everything else was an afterthought and now there's a huge space to the right because it wasn't originally accounted for. And the hat.
And the eyes. They really should read better before moving to the next part. What am I going to do about you.
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More issues with darker tones, especially over a huge span. Which direction do I even apply the pencil? Hair issues, fix ear, basically anything but the face was neglected. Especially the board because fuck all those knobs. I already screwed around long enough with my tiny scribbles. It wouldn't hurt to learn to work with larger strokes and speed things up, hm?
Am I done with my mindless copying? What was the main goal? To put down something, anything on paper. Maybe it could have been a habit eventually and I'll stop being afraid. How has it gone so far? The fear is still there. What's there to fear? Real people, imagined people. It's always been people. Mostly the imagined ones. Real ones are much less pervasive when you shut yourself out to most things, but they can be that much worse. What's someone who can't cope with other people? Weak. Not some bullshit condition like social anxiety or depression. Everyone has to learn to cope with other people. So why don't I try harder? Stop being lazy; that's all there is to do. Simple as that. Don't hide behind some made-up illness. "Oh, but I hear there's a lot of documented cases and it's just like depressed people to downplay their problems." No, they're absolutely nothing compared to people with real mental health issues; let those people receive help instead. It's a finite resource.
I don't know why I don't try hard enough. I can hardly look at anyone in the eye. I don't know why I fear and sometimes hate people. And they look so wonderful when you draw them.
